What Do You See?
When you look at me, what do you see?
The quiet, outer strength, or the hidden, inner weekness?
When you look in my eyes, what do you see?
The hard look of resolve or the tears threatening to betray my emotions?
Do You see the numb acceptence?
Or the bitter rejection that it can't be different?
My head says- "Leave me alone... I can take this."
My heart is pleading- "Don't listen to my head."
It's easier to not have friends
... But that doesn't make it any less lonely.
Does my wall of security keep you out?
Or do you see the hidden door I've made if one might only search for it?
I search your eyes in hope that I might find a secret knowing in them
But again, I must wait for another day
And again, I'm left asking aloud in my head...
When you look at me, what do you see?
~ Kate
Accident
The car is silent as I drive alone
Like any day, I'm on my own.
My thoughts shift to times gone by,
As the car drifts to the road side.
I realize too late, and I strike the pole.
The car tips and seems to roll.
My short life flashes before my eyes
There are so many hopes yet to be realized.
The dream job I never had
Those thoughts I never shared with dad.
That story that I never wrote.
Time lost, Without hope.
The gift I never gave my friend
So much to do before the end.
I should have called my brother today
As usual, time somehow got away.
The stack of bills, the unpaid loan.
The messy room where I stayed alone.
The wedding day, I saw only in dreams
The man, I was sure, would fix everything.
But now it's too late, I waited so long
So why does my life from here look so wrong?
All I ever wanted was too change someone's life
But I never knew I couldn't until I changed mine.
A car horn blares loudly, I move with a start
All I can hear is the beating of my heart.
I pull forward from the light and pull off to the side
I collect my thoughts as I start to cry.
It had all been a dream, I still have some time
To give someone hope, to change a life.
But also importantly,
To change Mine.
~ Kate
I'll Be There
When the world is dark and cold
and sorrow takes its hold on you
I'll be there...
When all hope feels like it's gone
and you think that death has won
I'll be there...
When there's no tears left to cry
You've wept until your eyes are dry
I'll be there...
When the shadows hide the light
and you feel as though you've lost the fight
I'll be there...
The sun will shine again one day
and you'll see the path and find your way
I'll still be there...
For through the clouds, there hides the sun
and when it shines again, you'll know you've won
And I'll be there...
~ Kate
Am I strong?
Am I strong enough to make it through?
To continue on through trials of darkness?
To push on through the marsh of despair?
Do I have the strength to forget the years?
To forget the memories that flood my mind,
Feeling it with unimaginable grief and sorrow?
Who am I to say that I’m big enough?
Brave enough? Tough enough? To make it through.
Who am I to say that I’ll just forget?
Memories pursue me wherever I run too.
And sadness soon turns to an ugly bitterness.
I am lost and soon I step back within myself.
And yet… a flicker of hope still manages to remain.
Not all hope is lost and I can’t help but dream
Despite the hurt it seems to have caused me.
For what are dreams without actuality?
What is hope without a cause for it?
What is life without something worth living for?
~ Kate
They
By: Alexandra
The silence kills me
My silence kills me
Not a word can escape
They’ve shut me up
I wish I could I could cry and scream
Until someone takes the time to care
But I have given up, long ago
I don’t have the strength to fight them
Why can’t they open their eyes
He stole my childhood
Done unspeakable things
Locked me in a invisible cage
They are suppose to protect us
And yet, they let so many suffer
They’ve closed their eyes shut
On so many childhood robbers
I’m tired of hoping,
Hoping they’ll make it okay
I put my fate in the angels’ arms
Maybe they’ll take care of me
The silence kills me
My silence kills me
Not a word can escape
I’ll let the angels save me…
Don't Give Up
By: Alexandra
When you want to smile
But you can only cry
When everything is out of control
Even if you’re trying to hold on
When no matter what you do
You can’t make it better
When your world is crumbling
And you’re crashing down
Don’t give up
When it seems like you’re alone
Find a friend, someone who cares
When your world is turned upside down
Fight, life will get brighter
When all your projects fail
Try again, success is failure turned inside out
When you look around and only see darkness
Keep hoping, you’ll find the light
And remember don’t give up
Hold On
By: Alexandra
When everywhere you lookThere is pain and hardship
When no matter how fast you run
Sorrow catches up to you
When the whole you’re in
Deepens every day of your life
When even your family
Turns their back on you
There is only one thing to do
Hold on to yourself
Wait, hope and pray
For the better days
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Two Untitled Poems
By: Essy
Hold onto what you have
And never let it go
It's when you give up that you lose
Don't let it beat you, no!
This chance of life you still have yet
Don't lose it now, and don't you fret
Hold on tight; don't let it go
There's nothing there for you below
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I can try to run and break away,
Release myself from what you said
But I can't fight, I can't escape
The nightmares in my head
These scars I take with me to bear
Hurt me more than any lie
This life is now my pain to live -
Here I breathe, and yet I die
Alone In A Crowd
By: Essy
I left alll I had behind me
But I had to get away -
more than anything
I couldnt' take it any longer
It wasn't what I was looking for
But now I'm more lost than ever
An outcast in this chaotic world
I'm the outlier,
the one that falls through the crack
I'm alone in a crowd -
Does anyone care?
I sit here alone and thinking
No one can help me -
you tried to reach out -
But I don't belong with you
You are of a world of which I cannot be
We are too different to be the same
An outcast in this cahotic world
I'm the outlier,
the one that falls through the crack
I'm alone in a crowd -
Does anyone care?
Someone - throw me a line
Help me, anybody!
I cannot take this pain anymore
I can't take the heartache
This life I can't keep living
So please be forgiving
If I choose to end the pain
I'm an outcast in this chaotic world,
I'm the outlier
the one that falls through the crack
I'm alone in a crowd -
Does anyone care?
Untitled
By: Alexandra
Yes, you hurt me
Yes, you took a piece of me
Yes, you changed me.
No, you don’t own me
No, you didn’t destroy me
No, you didn’t take my soul.
Yes, I break the silence
Yes, I rise again
Yes, I start living again
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To Explain Miracles
By: Flora
There is no better dream than reality
When from nightmares you awake;
In the dark of night,
When truth's pale light,
Erases your mistake.
There is no better talk than to sit in silence
With a friend whom no words can describe;
Where all that is said,
Is in your heads,
And all that is said is right.
There is no better place on the face of the earth
Than to lie on the face of the moon;
Which can only be reached,
By the power of speech,
And a figurative balloon.
So look for the moments that come without voice
And the dreams life already contains;
Then put them in words,
That everyone's heard,
Miracles to explain.
* NEW *
Where Have They All Gone?
By: Essy
Response to the genocide in Darfur.
Where have they all gone?
Why does our world seem so bleak?
Is it that no one else -
Can hear that we don't speak?
Where have they all gone?
Could no one else see?
That all they've done is take away -
Is this the way it has to be?
Where have they all gone?
Have they abandoned us all?
How is it they do not see -
That they have caused this fall?
Where have they all gone?
They vanished without a trace, a gleam
And now we lie dead at their feet -
They did not hear us scream.